I never wanted to read the bible. As a young adult I viewed it as complicated and scary. Later I spent some time in college and decided I especially didn't want to read it! I expected my Astronomy and Science classes would make me steer clear of it but in reality it was my Art History and Western Civ. classes that made a difference. Everything else I could always find a connection between God and the studies.
I read so many things about early religions and their experts (priests) that made me question the existence of God. Not a lot mind you, but even that is too much. Regardless, I made a connection somewhere. The connection was that back in the ancient ages, the religious leaders controlled the masses because of their lack of education and opportunities and I always told myself that I was too smart for that. But in reality I wasn't. I allowed so many people to tell me what is right and wrong and what the bible verses really mean. Yes, those bible verses that were written by man and changed over time. I seemed to forget little bits of information that really are important when I am stressed out. All my thoughts instead centered around the fact that I was afraid! Satan was going to get me because I could never be as perfect as Jesus and everything I did was wrong.
Recently I decided to make that change. I picked up the bible and started to read it. Starting at the very beginning where God created stuff...
I have to say that it has made a huge difference in the way I view things. All those things that people were saying isn't in there! I don't know if I am reading it in the right way but I am not taking it literal and I am using it as a tool to lighten my fear and anxieties. I sleep better at night.
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